late

yes you're late again. its meant to get more pressurizing by the day.

acculumation

Raymond has kissed Natalie using SuperPoke! 11:01pm

jealously is an evil thing.

strong

hello father in law! prepared as always i am.

lap

while loving you is destructive
while hating you is recovery

spins for directions

made for the threshold

here's to cc's girlfriend and me sharing about: distance.

really brings a closure to the year does it?

her's is v far away. me: v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v far away. more v for more valentines! :) yeah but i rather sacrifice them.

giggling and believing. not the key

seeking and living. an improvement!!!

phone bill please.

why

why are we learning histories when we don't even know our past

why are we needing fast facts about headline stars when we don't even know much about ourselves.

why do we have more opinions about others than ourselves.

why is life full of questions and barely of contentment.





i question his love

top 10 reasons

i invented this over the last week

why nat should get rid of the whole 'r h' dream. get over it!

1. he doesnt owe me anything. neither do i own him
2. i need back HEALTH and the loss of time over the years
3. he's too far away. plus its the wrong time zone (contributed)
4. i'm tired
5. i'm sure its not feasible anymore
6. i'm living in the past
7. i'm going crazy
8. i cannot be so demanding
9. childhood is childhood
10. there is a beginning and end to everything.

f: so how do u feel now tt he seems interested
n: he doesnt
n: i don't think he does.
n: i mean come on he lived in france forever. obviously he inherited those 'never offend girls' charmer traits
f: thats possible too

porus pot

the possibility of simplicity falling through

you're just too hard to forget.

run along you, run along and never come back

you are not a secret!


chng wants to be my lingerie model. oh boy.

regret!

i wished i recorded our first conversation

i wished i had remembered his voice properly

random flashbacks make me grin inappropriately

feeling's just too insane

tired

its time to end the climax of it all

: ] i sent my letter of resignation





sweat. eye begs. lack of sleep. phlegm.

speechless

he's too sweet. and too nice. i'm being too self centred!

natalie. says: (4:48:36 AM)well singapore has mostly other types of chinese
natalie. says: (4:48:42 AM)so i'm a rare breed. !
natalie. says: (4:48:44 AM)....
raymond says: (4:49:26 AM)yea, ur a rare breed to stay up til 5 in the morning to talk to french guys half way across the globe

raymond says: (5:03:19 AM)u must be dead
natalie. says: (5:03:27 AM)not that badraymond says: (5:03:40 AM)ur gonna wake up at 2 in teh after noon
natalie. says: (5:03:51 AM)just treating it like some sleepover
raymond says: (5:04:15 AM)except im 5000 miles away
natalie. says: (5:04:19 AM)yeah. but hmmm this is like once in a lifetime?
raymond says: (5:04:53 AM)once in al lifetim??? i didnt spend all that time getting msn to jst use it once!!


haha. sy dear. i'm not with him!!!

happy birthday to my baby m : )

'anyway, it was nice talking w/ u, u do hav a very nice voice and i loooove ur accent (jst a little hard to understand for me...:)).'

kk says he sounds desperate. how dare you kk!

random conversation

n: go to sleep! you got prelims dear!
m: nooooooooo
m: YOU NEED A TAN
n: why!
m: you're white
n: whats wrong being fair. i'm chinese not white
n: then you're black
m: i'm brown
n: uh huh

the failure of spoken language

get a grip!
control yourself!
he's as far away as this guy : )

tyron says OMG its too far away.

breaking rules

haha.

'i better not stop writing, or nat's going to be on my case again'

im so sorry

then again i need you?

what the hell

my boo

hello mr marx!

i'm trying not to be conditioned to be his slave

nat world controls herself.

bye karl dude

bort

diamond deeds. she fell ill falling in love.
these are the sharp cutting edge diamonds

she has no idea about the elite situation but by her own thesis

physical attack is a lower form compared to verbal
verbal attack is a lower form compared to psychological and mental

she thinks her brother's pathetic

but he's really a loser.

truth

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machines move me
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and its FRIGHTENING

refresh

REFRESH!

SNAP!

WATCH THE TIME TICK!

REFRESH REFRESH!

MINIMIZE MAXIMIZE!

BUY LOREAL PARIS EYE LINER!

REFRESH! REFRESH! REFRESH!

thats my secret blonde boyfriend

seriously no idea

how much control he has over me. the extent of damage love fosters

do i really need him that bad? ahhhhhhh i was pursuing the fake

machines, they are so much help.

the internet

they are slaves to their conditioning making us slaves to them

transport. information highway

things i'll expect to start the decease of mankind.

mother earth

o good al gore.

a/n: the kitten's cute. he's got a hurricane but i've got a hardcore obsession

the cycle of life

you win some, you lose some.

this is why i always desired letters. this is why i love the postman. this is why i keep everything given to me nicely in a file

i really appreciate it.
today he didn't reply. natalie almost waited till 4am

its crazy really
we learn so much about other people. media, books, literature. concepts and philosophies so far off from our own world
then again we understand and analyze them all the time
when do we have time to understand ourselves
do you know yourself?
or after all these years its be too complex and complicated
too much of a mix up
your own identity's been put behind
its not all about community
i rather not care

ricci's really a cool dude.

he's made for the world.

p.s. i think the people who sleep during lects are total opposites from him.

relax reflect reflex

i thank you for the love. the borrowed love. yeah, i'm very sure it expired.
no use holding on

hate to love you is a good gauge

That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for awhile
No.. but you won’t let me
You upset me girl, then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me

part of the song. my imagination is some wild thing.

to celebrate the turning point.

here's extracts of something so close

'but hey, maybe wer 14th cousins twice removed or somthng...'

'OMFG, i remember me sittin in kg class drawing somthing, a bird i think, and this bozo ruined my drawing by giving it red eyes r somthg, and u chewed him out for me, i remember, YESSSS!!!'

'heyyy, good morning natalie! (can i call u nat?)'

'PS: u nvr kno, we were together in kg, it might happen again...'

'thats not rly true u kno, the french ar jst a lot more...well..relaxed about romance. besides, ive lived here for 12 years, u dont think some of it might hav worn off on me?'

'hmm, u can fire a gun? ill hav to watch my step when i come to visit u.

ha notice i said when not if, tho i dont kno when 'when' is gonna be. i do want to, ive never been to asia at all!'

'hmm... u like guys w/ long hair, huh? (me spots a problem...)'

'u silly girl, u wouldnt sleep on teh streets, weve got an extra bedroom. i mean i live in a fairly big house, 3 stories, front lawn, ...'

haha. my my.
let me appreciate love in the simplicity.

nat will not be jealous.

expect that fact

gulped snapple. there are signs while shopping!

'real fact' #251
there are more french restaurants in New York City than in Paris.

barbarians

he found my song

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you will lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

<>
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

but he hasn't found me

sigh.

so far away.

soma isn't a great thing.

just as about

now

castle says i might be s solipsist

which crush says is

'solipsism is just basically the idea that anything external to the mind isnt really reality'

maybe everything's an illusion. thanks to my parents, i was born into this setting. and now to save myself

ahhhh but now there is an awakening.

he passed by 12 years ago and turned my head
12 years later i caught his attention again.

its a pretty wonderful thing. dreams do come true
but climaxes aren't forever my dear
heard of 'everything must come to an end'

this is the late bloom of summer love
and i am gonna lose him once again

thank God i'm a herrly